Betrayal.
The feeling of the one you love striking you across the face is worse than
being stabbed by a complete stranger. The feeling was crushing. It’s her fault,
it’s Daisy. It’s always been Daisy. I am ready to leave George. I have never
been in love with that man. But Daisy, the golden girl, still has a piece of my
Tom’s heart. Maybe I am better alone. I am stuck in a marriage that lacks
compassion and feelings, and the one I love, who holds the key to my escape, is
too ashamed of me to shout the news of our affair and break the chains of my
marriage to the world. What am I really worth to him? I have been told everyone
already knows of our affair, even Daisy. So why is that foolish girl still with
him? Everyone is unhappy in this situation. Am I the only one who can see that.
I tried telling Tom and look where that got me. He can’t even hear her name
from my mouth without his anger boiling over enough to strike me. Does he even
really love me the way I love him? Doesn’t he know I would pack my bags and
leave as soon as he gave me the sign to? Maybe I am better off alone. Both men
in my life just do not work. I am married to a naïve man who isn’t even sharp
enough to notice he is being humiliated. Though I try to hide it I am just so
obvious of my love for Tom. Then there’s Tom. What is he waiting for? Do I
embarrass him that much? Will the announcement of loving me damage his reputation that much? The idea is crushing. I guess I will just have to wait.
Listen baby don't think of it like that. It was your fault for bringing up Daisy in the first place. You know my situation and I know yours. You had no reason to get mad at me. I can't leave Daisy, and you know that. Just as I know you can't leave George. I'm not going to talk to you for a while so that George doesn't get jealous. But when I come back I want an apology from you about making me do what I did.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Tom